Was there good?

Most have heard the the old parable about the two fighting wolves within us, one angry, jealous, resentful and one peaceful, kind and hopeful.  The Child asks the Grandfather which wolf wins and he answers, “the one you feed.”  This speaks largely to the present and how we live our lives and make decisions.  It also may speak to our past – something that many people churn, regret, and actively pile on shame and anger.  We could be feeding the wolf within us now and feeding wolves of our past.

Sometimes with certain themes in our lives there is a choice to focus on the negative experiences and fill our cups full of all that we did wrong, or what was done wrong to us. Within these certain themes there could be contradictions that we conveniently ignore to feed the angry wolf, because we know him and we are used to his vicious treatment, and we are used to our shame and resentment.  The peaceful, positive, and kind wolf in our past is sitting there starving.  This one exists too, and can be woefully neglected.

The past has good and bad.  When there is a bad theme in our past that effects our lives now we have a choice: which wolf within those times is fed, groomed, and befriended. There was bad, yes, and was there good?

I am wanting to feed the peaceful, hopeful, kind wolf of my past so that my perspectives of NOW can look just a little different than the monster that sneaks in at times.